The Story
At the age of 13, I found the metaphysical section at the library. Being a curious adolescent, I serendipitously found a book that drew me into questioning the world as I knew it. One book led to another and I was hooked. I’m sure many of you have had similar experiences. At this time, in the late 1960’s, the world was undergoing an existential crisis. There was social strife, violence, a cultural movement unlike anything ever experienced before, (until today), led mainly by young people, people of color, and women who collectively were tired of being yoked by societal norms in deep need of change. Every system was being examined, pulled apart, and in many cases cast aside (sound familiar?). As a young adolescent, I watched this play out on TV, in the news, and in the conversations the adults in my life engaged in. At that time in my life I was seeking answers to questions that are vast, global, and in my case, other-worldly. And that is how I found myself at the community library, in the book stacks labeled “metaphysical” at the age of thirteen.
There is one significant impact from these books that changed my life. In more than one book there were references to prophesies about world events that would begin in the third quarter of the 20th century and culminate in the first quarter of the 21st century with a shift of consciousness so epic that the world as we knew it would radically and dramatically change in a very short period of time. It would usher in an era of peace unlike anything the world has ever seen. The thought of that both chilled me to the bone, and excited me like nothing I could imagine.
“Wait”, I thought, “I am living in that time now.” The late 1960’s and early 1970’s marked the third quarter of the century. What if the strife I saw all around me had a purpose far greater than the one I heard about on the evening news? If this were true, I could likely be alive to witness the changes that were coming, and I felt a surge of knowing that more than anything, I wanted to be true. The path to my spiritual awakening started then, and was paved with every book I read to get me to the certain truth that the times I lived in were remarkable, and would be changing rapidly, and all for a purpose - to bring us all into the state of peace and higher consciousness that was our nature and our birthright.
This spark of change was supposed to start in the third quarter of the 21st century and it would be seeded by souls who would purposefully begin to enter the world from the 1950’s onward, to help create this shift. Their work would focus on shaking up old systems to foster needed change. They would start a cultural shift that would get the world ready for what was to come. In a flash I saw the cultural revolution of the 1960’s in a vastly different light, and I got goosebumps thinking that I was living the prediction. What if I was one of those souls born to foster change? And what were those changes that were coming?
The prediction saw a renewed planetary culture where individuals finally come to understand their divine nature and create a world that is moral and ethical, bringing an end to global war and violence by the mid-21st century. Could this be true? It seemed unfathomable.
If souls were being born into the world at this time to assist, then there is meaning and purpose to our lives beyond anything I’d ever been taught. We aren’t randomly just here. And if this were true, then what about my life? What was my purpose? I needed answers. I read every book I could find that clued me in to the nature of our reality, because surely it was not what I was being taught in school, at home or at church.
In my 30’s I went through some major life events that turned my life upside down and inside out, and I reached across the veil for help. What ensued was a magical, mystical course of events that were wild and untamed. The experiences, in the form of profound and prophetic dreams, out of body experiences, remote viewing, bending forks - you name it, I seem to have experienced it - moved me fully into the world of mysticism. Looking back, I was being initiated into this other world in ways that were beyond my comprehension. It felt like I was living in a fantasy movie or one of the books I was reading. I wanted to shout it to the mountain tops!
The trouble was, no one wanted to hear it. In fact, I was ridiculed or at the least thought crazy. My fear of people’s thoughts and opinions caused me to turn my back on these experiences, to live a mainstream life. For the next 2o years or so, I hid. I moved inward and avoided anything but my own private meditations and readings. I tried to convince myself that it wasn’t important, to just go about my life and be happy but I wasn’t happy and got lost. Relationships, jobs, finances, and my self esteem plummeted. The more this happened, the more my sense of unworthiness grew. It was a feeling so ancient I didn’t think I’d ever recover. My story is the story of what happens when we fail to heed the call and appreciate the journey of our initiation.
I might have given up on me, but a higher calling isn’t easily put off. There came a day, not so many years ago, I remember well. While out for a walk something indescribable occurred that catapulted me right back into the understanding that my time had come to heed the call. I can only describe it as a wave of energy that washed over me so deeply that is rocked me to my core. All of the old feelings of unworthiness began to surface and wave upon wave of energy brought more and more to the surface as if to purge them. As confusing as it was in the moment over the days and weeks ahead I began to understand that I needed to slough off the old hurts, and move past the pain that had held me down. It was like a clarion call, a healing, and a reminder of the times we were in. I recognized that the time had come for me to step out from my dark corner and into the light.
In the short years since then I have been catching up, renewing my charge to be a willing participant in the changes ahead. My role is simple. I just need to offer a path for others, but also myself, to bring together like minded people who can do more together than any one of us can do alone. It doesn’t have to be more complicated than that.
Since I was 13, and first read about the great change that would occur in this part of the 21st century, I have had great curiosity to know and understand how it will all come about. We are fully in it now, and whether it is apparent or not, life has changed and will never go back to what it was. It’s time for all of us to stop hoping for what was, and start envisioning what can be. Will you join me in this great work?